I’m too tired to move a muscle.
All work remains to be done.
Not enough sleep worrying about a relationship.
Once close friends, then an internal continental scale drift.
Im the one who drifted away from the friends of my childhood and youth.
People would go quiet if I spoke of what was in my heart. I started pretending to be someone that they could relate to.
They stopped mattering to me.
They started noticing that I wasn’t there.
Like how India drifted away from south america and africa and crashed into asia, even while forming the formidable himalayas that kept the Asians out!
I guess I am sad. And lonely. But then who isn’t?
The young ones say – suck it up and stiff upper lip and all that.
If I am sad, so is humanity, if I am lonely so is everyone else.
Some ppl I knew at work used to act like they were tough and problem free and make sure they hurt other people. The bullies we hear are the biggest cowards. Nasty people.
God is everywhere by default but needs to be invited into human minds, or at least attended to.
Minds that deny God or turn away from IT are depressing and joyless and painful to connect to.
And yet prakRti competes with puruSa for the manas.
We bow to that divine prakRti and puruSa. We feel stronger and happier. Things are unfolding as they are meant to.
I wasn’t meant to do much work today. I wasn’t meant to do whatever it is I am unable to do. I was on the other hand, meant to do what it is that I am actually doing. Which is explore my feelings, grieving. Learning to accept that what was goo the day before, painful yesterday is over today.
Author : Satya Sarada Kandula : All Rights Reserved
