I need a little purpose in life. I think I’m done “house-wife-ing” for the past few years, though housework will still need doing. I think I will still read and write as I always have done since my childhood. I will still read story books I always have. It’s not what I will give up.. it is what I will do. I think I need to be “mainstream” for a while. This is hard even for those who are highly competitive and competent, and for someone who has been sitting on the wayside sipping tea, this is harder still. Other people do not want to be the purpose of our life. I cannot leap frog back either into my old career or a new one, I must find something that makes sense for me to do!
I have previously done, teaching, writing and software. I am tired of causes. I have travelled. I would like to be in the company of the awesome doing awesome things – the awesome people are already my friends and they are busy with their lives.
The location needs to be other than my home. But not so far away that it will kill my back or myself.
I don’t like being retired I think!
I am conscious of boredom as well as a wastage of life!
I found the corporate sector evil and the education sector mindless and meaningless. Just being at home turns one into a frog in the well, unable to deal with bangalore. I need a change of context for my mind, redefine the same people I am with – relate to them differently – reinterpret my surroundings freshly. I thought I might enjoy some carnatic music lessons. Not teaching but learning. Signing up for french classes.. something…
