I guess it all started with the spiraling prices combined with an increased assessment of my longevity. Then I felt I ought to have a job. Then I got called for an interview and I was getting set to take it.
Then someone at an earlier college where I worked said that “i had left twice’ without accounting for the fact that I worked harder than anyone else while I was there, i was overworked and overloaded and my health significantly deteriorated. At that time they gave me fundas about giving work to the busy guy to get it done.
Well, all that said, I felt that it might happen here all over again in the new college. I remembered blue books and invigilation, overloading, credit snatching, class bunking, yelling over the fans, studying to question papers, attendance.. he whole stuff.
Then I thought that I must give myself a chance to test my ideas, a chance to succeed at what I like… in my way. There was some initial supportive response from long term readers of my work and this was very reassuring and exciting. There was the whole bit about figuring paypal out and the idea of an egurukula and ideas for how to do it. Ideas about what it should be called and whether I should register the domain at once. Calls and chats and all the rest.. I guess the MNC project manager stuck her head out and ran things for a while and I was rather agitated.
There were also some good comments a couple of offers of work in my chosen line.. there was not a minute to spare.
Now slowly it is Saturday evening stats (always low), house work left over, no further “grants” as it were., empty mail boxes and e-mail boxes.
We need life-long inflation-corrected incomes, to live tension free. Now big numbers don’t translate to high standard of living… only to keeping the wolf from the door if such a phrase exists.
It is like Alice In Wonderland.. you run as hard as you can to stay in the same place., to actually get anywhere you have to run twice as hard…..
